Saturday, December 31, 2011

Focusing On The End Of The Year

Nashville, TN:  So at the beginning of the year, I decided to really focus on what I was doing in my life. To not just exist, but to live.  Enfocar.  I realized a few things while trying to keep that intention active throughout the year:
  • I've still got to figure out a way to multitask more efficiently.  It wasn't that my focus wasn't always there, but it was that I was focusing on too many things at one time.
  • Just because YOU have a set focus about life doesn't mean others have the same focus.  And it's easy to slip into un-enfocar (if that's even a word) if you're not paying attention.  I've got a work on constantly bringing it back to my core and re-focus everyday.
  • Enfocar is exhausting.

So as a way to prepare for the new year -- and a new intention -- my friend, A, suggested a ritual to honor the moment.  During the summer, A had brought over a prayer lantern and offered up my deepest hopes in to the night sky.  It was a beautiful list of desires and dreams and I could only pray they were read directly by God.  (Though I'm pretty sure the flame blew out & it landed somewhere in East Nashville.  But as long as someone got my list, right?)

With two lanterns still in their packaging, A and her trusty companion, Mother Teresa, met me at the lake (her wishful thinking.  more literally: the Centennial Park pond).  There, we spoke of our heart's longings and wrote our words of intentions on the delicate paper.

A chose faith, a simple but powerful means to alleviate disillusionment.  I chose wisdom, so that, as I continue to gain knowledge and skills, I actually know what to do with them.

Once our prayers were made, we lit the lanterns and sent them into the dusky sky.

A went first:

And then me:

As the lanterns disappeared into the night, I was reminded of how temporary this all is.  The joys and the pains;  the highs and the lows...  they're all wrapped up together in a package we know as 2011 and then suddenly they are gone and a new year will begin.  As I begin the next chapter of this autobiography, I offer up a borrowed prayer:  that I may have serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.


1 comment:

kfr14819 said...

Yes, a great start. You are at the point in life that it makes sense to consider these things and figure out what to do for you. Faith has to run deep to be strong, has to be strong to be tested, and has to be tested to grow. Love you Carolyn, and wish you happiness.